im reli trying~

Looking back, i realised im trying harder than last year.... especially the responsibilities of being a student... i hated 2006... no, i hate 2006...

im trying to be everything im not last year... i reli take my studies more serious now... although sumtimes im still abit lazy hehe... so far life has been a smooth ride... i dont wanna mess it up... i dont want a life full of regrets... im very scared of time... past n future... i think too much... i oways think abt the worst case scenario where everything just falls apart...

im taking C&Gs this year... i dont wanna fail it... i dont care abt the rumours, fact or false... bullshit lies or hard-copy proofs... i just hope ppl respect me for my decision... i just wanna c the look on their faces when i do make it... if i pass this year im pretty ****ing sure life is not a box of chocolate coz i noe wats inside...

i just wish ppl dont judge me becoz im reli trying to change... word on the street is dat 'casper's studying at riam now n he wasted 1 year...' word on the street is dat 'i dont give a ****' i thank god for everything dats happened... n thank god i hav tolerence for bullshits n disses...

i like my life now... i hav specific goals now n i dont wanna ruin the plan... i just hope life's gets better for me n hopefully i wont hate myself like i used to...